England-y Building!
I want to go to school in England. No I mean in addition to the year that I’m currently doing through my home school. I applied to precisely one school (I feel like I just became one of those ‘que sera sera’ type of people by doing that…) (Wait! What does ‘que sera, sera’ actually mean!? Did the song lie to me?). One school, one shot, I didn’t get in. Disappointing? Sure. Devastating? Hardly.
If I really am gumptious (that’s a word now, because I said so) about it, I will search for a different school. Maybe I will find a job, maybe I will go home, maybe I will go to a different country all together! O.o
I don’t know what I’m going to do! And that’s awesome. Have you ever been so focused on one goal that you forgot about everything else that was going on around you? There is nothing that will shoot you back to now than your future plans being shot down.
Why do you want what you want? Is it possible that it isn’t really the best thing for you? Maybe providence has something else (ie BETTER) in store for you and you just couldn’t have it if you followed the ‘10 year plan’.
I’m sure there is someone out there saying ‘if you really wanted to go to school there, you wouldn’t have applied to just one.’ Maybe that’s true… But I had specific reasons for choosing the school that I did. And I have specific reasons for not wanting to go to just any school I can get into here.
The next 18 months of my life are full of possibilities, and I will figure out how utilize every bit of that time, moment by moment.
What about you? How are you spending the next 18 months? 12 months, the next 3 months? How are you going to use the next week, even? You don’t have to know now. Enjoy the ride and make it count.
I’m sorry you didn’t get into that school, but you are 100% right– there might be a big awesome reason it didn’t work out, and something even better will come out of it all. I used to get really bummed when a guy I liked a lot didn’t like me back, but looking back now, I see God’s hand in it all. I really didn’t see the big picture then, and I have changed so much. Enjoy the time you ARE there, and trust that God’s got amazing plans for your next couple of years– whatever they hold ♥