Ciao a tutti! Yeah that’s pretty much all I have so far. However, soon I am planning on starting another blog purely in Italian. Mostly because the experience will help me with the language and I am determined to be fluent by the end of the year, but partially because I want to see if I can be witty in another language (highly doubting, but we all have to have goals)
I know I keep not posting, and I keep apologizing for it. So let’s move on to what I like to do best: EXPLANATION!
When I started this blog, oh so long ago, I mean it’s been what 9 months now!? I was writing about my experiences about everything and what I thought of them. I didn’t talk religion so much. I didn’t make a secret about my belief in God, and in my first post I talked about the fact that I celebrated New Year’s Eve at a church (and about how I accidentally insulted my friend… Really didn’t mean to do that… Me and my mouth I’m telling you).
But I focused on other things, how you need to worry about yourself sometimes, how if you want to be able to have a real friendship you can’t just insist your friends open up to you but there has to be a two way street of loyalty and communication (not necessarily open heart baring souls conversations all the time, but communication and shown appreciation).
These aren’t exactly things that are a huge secret I’m blasting across the interwebs sending people into a shock of “What!? is that all??? No way!” No! These are things that are common sense, so common we count them as almost inherent and forget about them. I’m simply a reminder (a reminderer? I do reminders) of how we are supposed to treat ourselves and our loved ones (and our not-so-loved ones).
But lately I’ve been doing other things. I’ve been, like, preaching or something on here. Which I know makes a few of my friends just sooooo proud, but it makes me uncomfortable. Yes, I have my beliefs and they dictate the way I live my life. Do I expect you to share them? Just of my known readers I have an atheist, an agnostic, a Wiccan, a Rastafarian (sorry dude, I don’t know what else to call what are (; ), and yes several Christians. But even in the Christian group there’s Pentecostals, at least one Baptist, and Seventh-Day Adventists. Not a single one of these people are going to agree 100% with each other or with me. And in some cases the system is completely opposite.
I don’t expect people to always agree with my belief system even though I believe in it with all I am. By that definition, to be frank, I believe that God is real and Jesus is his son, and if you don’t believe that you are wrong. But it’s not my job to tell you that you are wrong. You think I’m wrong. And that’s okay, we can coexist with these differences.
I don’t like it when people can only talk about their religion. It shows an incredible lack of ability to mix with the modern world and to connect with today’s people. And while I respect tradition and standing moral ground, if you cannot find a way to relate to contemporary happenings you simply become outdated and ineffectual; eventually to disappear forever.
Even those who do not believe that Jesus is the Son of God admit he was a great teacher (I have my issues with that statement, but that isn’t really the point here). He was a radical. He was contemporary. He respected tradition and religion and the beliefs of the day while simultaneously challenging the things that had become tradition and ritual for the sake of tradition and ritual. That which was stale and hurtful to people he changed for the love of people and love of God.
So lately, that’s what I’ve been talking about, religion and beliefs. I talked about the conference I went to, I talked about the Father vs Friend analogy concerning God, I’ve talked about end times (sort of… Technically I did that a few years ago.) and about church etiquette. I feel stuck. Yes, I am into my religion; yes, I go to a SDA university. Yes, I am surrounded by this and so it will be in my head. Yes, I’m figuring out my relationship with God so my revelations will have a religious undertone (or overtone if I’m being honest.)
But I don’t want to alienate people. I don’t want to be the person with only one conversation piece. I refuse to be the person who can only communicate in the lingo of their belief system, cutting them off from the rest of the world. The world full of beautiful people that can and will challenge me and enrich my very existence.
So I guess that’s my problem. I don’t know what to say right now. I’m still figuring myself out, and some of that journey has to be just mine and not mine to share.